I'm up this morning thinking about a problem I have which has made me sick, and sad, and scared.

My mother and father raised my brother and me to be self-sufficient, proud, hard working, philanthropic members of society.

I pretty much stayed on the path my parents wanted. I have found out, however, that this is not the case with my brother. In fact, my brother is so far off path, that my brain can not wrap itself around what my brother has gotten himself in to.

My mother, God rest her soul, is probably turning over in her grave many times over.

My brother and I became estranged in 2001 when my mom passed away. It occurred when my ex-boyfriend told my family what I did for a living. My brother did a lot of really bad things when he found this out.

As of recent vintage, as all of you know, I found out he was in a bit of trouble. However, after talking to him for three hours, the word "bit" is not accurate, it is more like, "he is in a world of shit".

My brother has not asked for help, but as a caring nurturing human being, I need to get my brother out of the "world of shit" he is in. I cannot for the life of me even wrap my brain around how he is living.

So here it goes, I have never, even, ever in all my years in this business ASKED any of you guys to come see me. I have advertised specials, I have mailed people who wanted to be on my mailing list, but I have never ASKED.

I am asking now.

I need to help my brother. If I was touring now, I would be in a position to help him ~ but because of the holidays and my Chicago VIP obligation, I am here.

My touring rates are up on my website, however, you guys get to take 50.00 off my rates.

Christmas is the season of miracles, and I need a Christmas miracle right now. Please help me help my brother.